i hate being unproductive

there are so many things in my mind right now that i could be doing. instead, i've spent like the past hour of my life on the couch. not moving. i hate being unproductive. i have just been sitting here thinking. and then when that got old, i decided to turn on my trusty ol' dell and see if today would be the lucky day it would blow up. so far, no incident.

i can't describe my life right now. i can't describe my emotions. i can't put them into words. the only thing that i am sure of, is that the only way i am going to make it to the other side of this mountain is by wholly putting my trust in God. i know that sounds so cliche, but it's so true. unless i press on, holding steadfast to the truth, i'm not sure that i would make it to the other side.

i also thought of why i hesitate so much to blog. it's because we have to blog at school. once a week. yikes. and its so forced. i don't know why i put both of my blogs in the same category, because they are most definitely not. eh, just a thought.

sorry this has been so random. welcome to my stream of consciousness for the day. :)

until next time...

it happens

today was just one of those days. i got up and left dev's at 6. school was just long. salinah and i got into a huge fight. erin got sick all over her desk, her, and partly my arm. (gross) and she peed her pants while doing so.

yeah, that was fun. then, my uncle david goes nuts-o on my cousin sarah, so she is crying to me, today is margarets birthday, sarah got a puppy, margaret got a fish, and my mom is out of town, so i have to take care of the dogs. that i don't really like.

i feel like i'm complaining, and maybe i am. sorry about that. but honestly, today just sucked. even the office was a rerun. so, i'm going to bed.

see you on the flip side...